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Welcome back to me. Here’s a week old post that I couldn’t put up earlier:

Reminiscing

When I was a student at Wesleyan, I left town for Spring break one year without cleaning the refrigerator at all. Milk and soymilk sat open. Other food items lay inside while I was gone for three weeks. Some time during that three weeks, a fuse blew in my home and the fridge was left to get warm. This was either during or before the heatwave.
When I opened the door to my Wesleyan fridge, a cloud of green spores filled my kitchen. Literally, a cloud of particulate matter. Aaron cleaned it all, god bless him. (I wonder if he wants to move here to be my housemate again?) The situation was something of a disaster. However, it did not smell as badly as the refrigerator in the anti-squat where I stay. I’ve been eating out a lot.
If Aaron did want to come out here for a while, he might find it familiar. In many ways, this is a lot like when I started at Wesleyan. Holland’s food culture is on a par with Connecticut as is, I’ve been told, the weather. The course load is also similar. In my first semester at Wesleyan, I took way too many classes. Here, I’ve found my course schedule to be even more packed. I have classes five days a week. I’ve gone to four so far. I have three more tomorrow, two or three on friday, two on monday and tuesday. I don’t have to actually take all of these and indeed I have some that I am considering dropping.

School

So far, I’ve learned that Sonology’s origins are from the Acoustical Research department at Phillips. So Sonology has the tapes for Poème Electronique , which they commissioned.
I’ve also learned that women are good at communication, which is why Pauline Oliveros writes the kinds of audience pieces that she does and that a lot of music is male exhibition just like peacocks, so biologically speaking one could conclude that women were unsuited to music and thus probably don’t have a cross-cultural tradition of same and wait, how does Pauline Oliveros fit in this? and yeah I found one possible class to drop. yay gender essentialism.
Also I had a long and math filled lecture on convolution and I’m ashamed to admit that I dozed off. When I awoke, there was a formula on the backboard. I think I get DSP except for the formulas are confusing. What does h refer to again? There needs to be some sort of key provided next to every equation to remind you what the hell the letters are referring to. I took trig a long time ago, so I think I can hack it, even if I could not remember the frequency relationship between a sine wave and that same wave squared. (Octave higher + offset. It’s how frequency dividers work.) Finally, I learned that convolution is a linear process and therefore is reversable, although Curtis Roads claims otherwise. hmmm.

Housing

Cola has been off looking at apartments. Today we looked at two. One was at the very high end of the price range, but comes furnished and with a possible 6 month contract. The other was way too expensive and won’t be ready until next week. But the landlord called up tonight and offered us the bigger, more expensive one for the lower price. Also, no agency fee. Hope on the housing front.
Also went today to Stroom and signed up to try to get housing through them. They’re an arts group which offers help to artists locating housing or studios. To qualify, you need to be part of the group or a student at the art school or the conservatory. There is a waiting list. I wish I had looked into this when I was here over the summer.

The Next Day

Last night, somebody dumped a pile of stuff in the street in front of where I anti-squat. And it’s not even Sunday. I kept hearing scavengers coming by to look at the stuff, so this morning, I took a gander and grabbed a mirror. Huzzah, there is now a mirror here. There was also most of a bike, but the front end looked kind of messed up. If only I could weld!

First Period

So there are ballet students at my school, because I go to the Royal Conservatory (oh my god, how did this happen exactly?). The ballet students have changing rooms near the music practice rooms. The changing rooms have mirrors ringed with lightbulbs, just like backstage-y stuff. The changing rooms also have showers. Showers with hot water. At 9:50 this morning, I handed the front desk my student card and in return got a key to a room with a hot shower in it. Then Cola and I ran down there, became clean (yay!) and I ran up just in time for my 10:00 class which doesn’t start until September 14th, something I would have known had I gone to the meeting or if I spoke any Dutch. I am seriously going to take some evening classes or something.

Second Period

Afternoon class number one was on the roots of computer music. We talked about the Theremin, the Ondes Martenot, the RCA Mark I synthesizer and Music I – Music V among other aspects like timbral limitations fo repeating wave forms. It was mostly review for me, but I hadn’t heard sound samples of the Mark I before. The teacher, Paul Berg, also asserted that new instruments and technology tend to be first used for old applications. Clara Rockmore played Rachmoninov with the Theremin. The first Mark I stuff was old warhorses arranged for synthesizer (this thing, btw, took up an entire room and was not voltage controlled. It had 12 discrete oscillators – one for every equally tempered step, an octave switching device and some wave shaping. crazy). Berg sees this tendency as regrettable, but I think it’s just part of human nature. People relate new tools to old frameworks. Many people now carry around in their pockets little computers with fast disk access and D->A converters. The use them for playing recordings, because that’s how they think about pocket-sized musical devices. It’s using a new technology for an old idea. If you want a CD player or a casette player, by all means get one. And it’s not bad to use your Ipod as a glorified one of those. But really, it could/should be more.
Also, I counter that not every application of new technology to old aesthetics is bad. Ipods are a case in point. Also Wendy Carlos’ Switched on Bach is really wonderful. It’s fun, it has interesting sounds and it was a good idea. She got great timbres and it deserved the popularity that it achieved. Old music with a new instrument is only a problem if it’s not done well.
Also, Ondes Martenots are cool and I want one. They’re expressive as heck and very well suited to some solo performance. Also Messiaen wrote great stuff for them. They also have interesting timbres, partly because the speakers are sometimes behind sympathetic strongs or gongs or otherwise modified. Pure awesomeness.

Third Period

My last class today was one of those first meetings where the teacher talks about what he’s going to talk about. It’s a class largely about spatialization, but also sounds in space: how they work physically. The teacher is involved with wavefront synthesis. From what I gleamed from just the introduction to these subjects in general, my SuperCollider spatialization classes work the right way. I am going to add support for reflections very soon as my suspicions on how to do it are apparently correct. Anyway, if you get a really fast processor and a whole bunch of D->A converters, you could generalize my code to do wavefront stuff for you. Maybe I’ll make it automatically for n channels, just in case.
Also, the speed of sound varies according to atmospheric pressure and air temperature and humidity and whatnot. Perhaps I should get a little USB meteorological station. People are sensitive to very tiny differences in timing, so it may actually be perceptible.

The evening

I hate Dutch food. Why must everything have so much sugar in it? I am listening to Not Made of Stone by Polly Moller. It seems to be partly about our road trip to Vegas in 2003. I hope I am not Deep Eddie.
I really like my school. I have wanted to live in The Netherlands for a long time. I’m so happy I came.

And More Recently

Well, I haven’t posted for a while, but I haven’t written anything for a while either. Who wants to read through a glut of week old news? I’ve now been to every class at least once. I felt kind of negative about today’s classes, but maybe just because it’s Monday. Maybe if I didn’t take any Monday classes, I’d start to feel negative about Tuesdays. Class is in MIDI. For real. Not “‘MIDI’ but really OSC” or really hardware devices or really anything else, but MIDI. Today we talked about the MIDI spec.

MIDI

MIDI should be dead technology and CV should be alive and kicking (maybe if they were, my opinions would be reversed… (probably would, alas)). The teacher gave a lengthy explanation, but didn’t talk about binary or hex representations, and the sick logic is not apparent without such knowledge. Let’s look at the anatomy of a midi message in binary. First, the first 4 bits: 1wxy. the 1 indicates a a new event of some kind. wxy indicates which event it is. Astute observers will note this leaves 8 possible events. This is kind of true. The next 4 bits (almost always – unless the first 4 bits are 1111) indicate the channel number. Obviously, there are 16 channels. Then you get two more possible bytes (some events only use one more byte. Some use no more.). Those bytes must start with 0 to indicate that they’re not new events. So you get seven bits to work with, which is to say, 0-127. Possible values thus range from 80-FF for byte 1, and 00-7F for bytes 2 and 3. A note on on channel one in binary is: 1001 0000 0 followed by a seven bit number indicating which key, followed by 0, followed by a 7 but number indicated amplitude. Half amplitude (“velocity”) on note 60 would be 1001 0000 0001 1110 0011 1111 (or 90 1E 3F)
Let me note that 7 bit amplitude really sucks.

Life

I want a PolyMoog. And a pony. And a bicycle. I’ve talked myself into getting one worth bringing home at the end. I also want an apartment. I have a landlord, I think. Having a landlord and not an apartment is definitely the worst of both worlds. Anyway I should have lodging any day now. Which is good because the guy at the reception desk today told me I couldn’t shower.
The analog studio here was two walls of synth modules including 16 oscillators. OMFG.
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Yesterday’s Typing

School officially opened today, which apparently included some speeches or something. I’m vague because when I checked the time of the event this morning, I had the idea that 13:30 was 3:30PM and not 1:30 PM and so while more together students heard an inspiring lecture, I was taking a (desperately needed because I was too tired to tell time) nap. I arrived at school 5 minutes after everything concluded.
I got my student card but not my course schedule. When do classes start? Theoretically, tomorrow, but I don’t know. Hopefully, I’ll find out when I post this as somebody will have answered my email.
Cola and I went to a rental agency in our quest to find housing. The rental person explained that since we were looking for less than a year, we absolutely have to rent a furnished apartment. This adds 100+€ to the price. Agency fees are equal to one month’s rent (therefore, rent = ((stated rate) * (1 + 1/9)) + utilities,   Utilities = 120€ ish). Den Haag should be cheaper than Paris, damnit! I computed that it might be cheaper to take the year lease and just pay for the extra months that we won’t be here. Nicole is going to look at two expensive apartments tomorrow. Squatting looks better and better.
We just bought a requisite lamp from a Turkish shop. I am proud of myself that I bargained down from 15€ to 12.50€, but I made some errors. I said 10€ when I meant 10€. I should have offered 5€, which is what it’s probably worth. It has a little trophy figure of a footballer on it. We’ve got the requisite 4 books. If we steal the air mattress which I inflated this morning, all we need is a table and a chair and we’re set. Maybe also a residency card, since neither of us has registered yet. This is theoretically not a big deal but I think I might make an appointment tomorrow despite our lack of permanent address. I’ll be fine but I’m worried that staying at an anti-squat might look bad for Cola since she’s coming in as a person looking for work.
Anyway, now our current lodging will have two sources of light, although still no hot water, as my attempts again today to light the heater failed. Gas here has a scent added, but it’s different than in the US and I don’t know what it smells like. Nicole can apparently detect it, but so far, nothing. That’s good because there will be no explosions but bad because there will be not hot showers. I need a place to live. What am I doing here? I wake up with absolutely no idea where I am.
I’m going to have homework and tests and stuff. Tests! What’s up with that? I’m too old for tests. I’m too old for school. What the heck am I doing here? Bay Area prices for furnished apartments? Tests? Hideous, insufficiently bargained lamps?
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Notes from Yesterday

I’m here.

Got into France yesterday and right away got tickets on the Thalis train to the Low Countries. Started calling hotels listed in Fodors. This guide book had the most listings for The Hague, but is not a book for budget travelers. The youth hostel was booked (other students who planned ahead, curse them!) so booked a normal hotel. Maybe a 2 star or so. Arrived in The Hague around 19:30, figured out how to buy tram ticks, found hotel, found food, slept.

Housing

Today, I found the phone number of the guy I stayed with when I visited and then also called a bunch of apartments listed on Craig’s list. They were all very far from school and the nice one was more expensive than where I lived in Paris. Bah.
Sasha tried to figure out a temporary solution to my housing crisis. Hotels here are not cheap. Finally, he hit on an idea. His friend is out of town for two weeks, so we can stay there in his absence. The question was: do we break down the door to get in and just buy him new locks or do we try to track down the keys? It was decided that the second solution was best because of the number of locks on the door.
It’s an anti-squat. In The Netherlands, it’s legal to squat, but you have to do it a certain way. You need a lamp, a table, a chair and a bed and the best time to move them in is Sunday at noon. If you don’t have all these things, you can be evicted or arrested for burglary, which would probably be inconvenient for me right now. There’s a ten block area of town that’s all slated for demolition, which means it’s kind of easy to squat, at least until they knock the building down. anyway, once you have all your squatter stuff moved in, you let people know that you’re squatting there which hopefully will prevent people form knocking the building down with you inside.
Some owners who have empty apartments would like to avoid having squatters. Squatters have the rights of tenants and get free utilities, but pay no rent. To prevent squatters, you use anti-squatters. These guys pay the landlord like 50€/ month and live like squatters except they can be kicked out when the landlord wants. It’s almost as good as squatting.
So the anti-squat has electricity and water, but no gas, which means no heat and no hot water.

Furnishing

There’s some sort of large rubbish pick up on Sunday night where people with permits can dump large piles of junk on the street. People without permits drive around looking for pre-existing piles to augment. People who want, say, a living room set drive around looking for one. We saw a nice sofa and matching love seat and a bunch of nice dining room chairs. If we start collecting enough stuff and get a chair, table, bed and lamp, maybe we could just squat near the anti-squatter.

School

Starts tomorrow (Monday). Labor day is May 1st here, so no holiday. I know (I think) where I’m supposed to be, but not what time. I am so damn tired. 9:00 am here is midnight in California. zzzzzzTags: ,

Are you still here?

Trying to read Dutch apartment listings is making my head spin. Dutch is like a really drunk German guy trying to speak English. Ask me if I still think that after I’ve been there a while. I leave for France on Friday. Because I am a master of preparedness, I have no train ticket from there to the Netherlands and no place to stay in Paris nor in The Hague. I saw a promising apartment listing on Craigslist today, though, phone contact only. Yay for skype. Boo for time zones.

My gig at the Temescal Café was fun and went well. Each set successfully emptied out the restaurant. Nothing in the tip jar, but I forgot you need seed cash. If people don’t see some dollars already in the jar, nothing will go into the jar. Also, like, most everybody fled, so there might have been other factors. I have avant-gaurde creds!
Last weekend, I went on a river float trip in the Central Valley. T’was fun. Cola got caught in a tree, but I stayed disaster free. It was more fun than the last time I went as I knew a lot more people and they all chilled out a lot after the organizers had a kid.
Most of my paperwork is in order. Y’all should come visit me.
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Gig Monday

7-9 pm monday 8/21 @ temescal cafe 4920 telegraph, oakland.
Improvised music plus good food and beer.

7:00pm
Aram Shelton
alto saxophone, bass clarinet
Jen Baker
trombone
Celeste Hutchins
tuba
Damon Smith
double bass
The Just In Time Quartet, as seen at the Skronkathon. Again living up to it’s name, since my plane is supposed to come in at 4:35. whee.
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Concert Reports

Maybeck

I played my gig at Maybeck on Wednesday with David. We had a good handfull of people, about 20, which isn’t bad considering the extremely short notice and which is half the capacity of the space. Reactions were mixed. My brother said, “that was . . . [long pause] . . . interesting.” Somebody else characterized it as “f***ing awesome.” we’ve been invited back, which is generally a good thing.
It’s interesting to play an instrument where you can’t really predict what it’s going to do. I use a lot of chaos patching. (That is a situation with 3 oscillators, such that OscA frequency modulates OscB, which FMs OscC, which FMs OscA.) Chaos sometimes repeats along certain patterns, like a 7 note pattern, or more notes, or sometimes maps to no shape at all. A tiny knob twist changes everything. Add in an LFO and it goes from state to state and then back again (well, only back if your Oscs don’t drift, and since mine are MOTM, they don’t).
In David’s case, unpredictability came from complicated SuperCollider patches, which at one point spun out of control in a really interesting way.

SFEMF

On Thursday, I went to the opening night of the San Francisco Electronic Music Festival. (I think I’ve gone to every single one – tonight might be the only concert of it that I’ve ever skipped. huh.) The second piece was by Manuel Rocha, called Frost clear energy saver and involved, I swear to god, a refrigerator, miced and on stage. (Follow the link for a recording.) He wrote in the program notes that he become fascinated with the sound of his refrigerator. Interestingly, he also spent time in Paris, earning his PhD from Paris VIII. Cross-continent refrigerator love? It is a phenomenon? My jaw = dropped. Since he mixed it at Mills in 1991, while I was a student there [Edit: before I was a student there], there’s a chance that my refrigerator feelings were unconsciously influenced by a mostly-forgetton memory of that same piece.
The festival is super. All the pieces last night were cool. I’m only skipping tonight it because I haven’t eaten dinner in the last several days. Tomorrow night, Matt Davignon is playing. He has an excellent new album out right now. Polly Moller has posted a review to her blog. It’s a calm and gentle treatment of the drum machine, pulling out an unexpected energy which is soothing and unexpected. It’s good music to listen to if you have (say) anxiety cuz it’s interesting and cool, but won’t freak me you out.

Monday, August 21st

Is the afternoon that I fly back from Apple Valley (well, from Ontario, CA). I’ll be playing tuba that evening with the Just in Time Quartet at the Temescal Café in Oakland, CA, provided, you know, no plane delays or terrorists. I’m brining no toothpaste, so as to avoid having to check a bag. (Who knew toothpaste was a security threat? Maybe somebody at the TSA just saw the first Austin Powers movie.) I’ll be playing 7-9, which will be a loooong time for my chops, but hopefully some practicing + mouthpiece buzzing while in the south will get me in shape.
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Gig Report: Luggage Store & Skronkathon

Luggage Store Gallery

First up was a very nifty band called Bolivar Zoar with Ava Mendoza, MaryClare Brzytwa, and Theresa Wong. They are like experimental + country with a punk rock aesthetic. So much fun! High points involved MayClare screaming like a musical horror movie actress and Theresa standing up and growling at her like the horror movie monster, putting the screaming in perspective and adding a comic element. It’s very rare and wonderful when a group can so successfully meld the performance aspect and the musical aspect. All the humor, screaming, outlandishness and punk rockiness is completely musical. I hope they put out a CD.

All of them are recent Mills alums (indeed, the band was founded as a project for Maggi Payne’s advanced recording techniques class). In fact, a very large percentage of the audience was Mills alums and women vastly outnumbered men. Alas, the audience was very small and a couple of people left during the longish intermission + burrito break. When I went on, there was a certain air of show and tell. I played:

  1. UPIC Impressions of Paris
  2. Bourdon Bleu
  3. Music for Panic Attacks
  4. Requiem for my Paris Refrigerator
  5. Organic Forms
  6. Meditations pour les Femmes
  7. A short improvisation with Ellen Fullman on autoharp

Reaction was generally positive. I am never playing Music for Panic Attacks again, zoloft or no zoloft. I may never even record it. People like it, but it makes me incredibly tense. Requiem is possibly not finished. I wrote it the morning of the show and I think I need to spend more time with it before I can call it done. I did not play any recordings of my refrigerator. Truth be told, they didn’t come out at all. It’s weird melodies will live on in my memory.

Skronkathon

I was in an quartet dubbed the Just in Time Quartet by the announcer. (Not all of us arrived early.) It’s always funny doing these improvs where you introduce yourself to a couple of people you’ve never met or seen before and then start improvising. I don’t know what we’d talk about at a party, but now we’re on a stage just playing stuff.
It had a good energy. We only played for like 20 minutes. Mitch missed us entirely.
I stayed around for a few other acts, but then ducked out to get a sandwich down the street (yeah, the skronkathon was a BBQ, but my friends ate all my tofu dogs). The sandwich launched an assault on my still troubled stomach, so I ended up seeing very little skronking. Alas.
It’s funny how I have anxiety about so many things and sometimes barely get through my day, but getting up and playing tuba in front of a room full of people is no problem. I think I should play more tuba every day. Honestly, I don’t know how people live without tubas and dogs. How do they ameliorate the crushing pain of existence?

Still space for the last gig

There is still space available for my Wednesday gig. It’s the last one that I’ll probably play this August. (if you’re looking for a tuba player around the SF bay this August to improv – I’m your man!) I just found all the pieces of my synthesizer yesterday and set it up at Maybeck. It sounds nice there. There’s a good PA and the room sounds good. Doing noisy, loud sounds that cut out suddenly is very dramatic there. The sound hangs for a moment, reverberating and then disappears.
I bolted everything together sort of haphazardly, such that modules I would normally patch together are far apart. So when I was testing it yesterday, I got some very different sounds. The best patch ever! Too bad I couldn’t record it. I think I will keep it in this configuration for a while.
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Gig: Wednesday August 9th at 8:00 PM in Berkeley

I will be playing an
improvised synthesizer/laptop duo of electronic soundscapes, textures
and noise with David Jensenius on August 9th at 8:00 PM at the Maybeck
Recital Hall in Berkeley. Reception to follow.

I will be playing an analog modular synthesizer, one of those monster
synthesizers that requires cables to patch it together. David will be
doing live processing in SuperCollider. He is an excellent composer
and an MA student at Wesleyan University and is in California for only
a short time.

Donations at the door would be appreciated, $10 more or less.
Seating is limited, so email reservations are necessary.
Please respond to: celesteh@gmail.com
Directions to Maybeck will be sent in response.

The Maybeck venue is really lovely. For more information about it,
see their website: http://www.handprintseries.com/

This is my last scheduled concert in California for this summer.

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Quake / Doctor

The evening of my first day back, there was a small earthquake. Welcome home! I didn’t believe it was a quake at first because it was so small and quiet, but indeed, it was a 4.5 near Santa Rosa. The local news featured an interview with a Santa Rosa woman who had a box of Q-tips fall on her head in a local WalMart, but was fortunately unharmed.

I went out with Mitch but felt crappy, alas. The next day, I went to see a doctor and whined and whined and perhaps whined too much because now I have a prescription for Zoloft. Hmm. I have not yet taken the first pill because it causes (yay) stomach upset and I still feel ill from breakfast. (Lois the Pie Queen tastes great but is ill-suited for delicate stomachs.) The doc told me to eat yogurt to fix my constant indigestion/naseau. I’ll let y’all know if it helps. Anyway, apparently feeling sick and hurt is not from having a bacterial infection recently that I still don’t feel better from, but rather is curable with Zoloft. Whatever works. Maybe it will help. I’m seeing a chiropractor tomorrow, who can maybe unknot my back and arm. If it is just stress causing me ill, then she will be great help.
Also, I learned that I weigh 119 lbs (54 kg). I’m 5’11” (180 cm). What’s perhaps more alarming than me dropping like 20 lbs (9 kg), is that my weight is up from it’s low point, which must have been around 110-115 lbs (50 -52 kg). Maybe that’s why I feel kinda listless. Sorry for whining so much. Apparently, I’ll be cured of whininess soon.
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